gosh mike's blog is so wordy and deep I feel a bit shallow only on here moaning about the weather and money. but I can't really think about missing everything as it still doesn't seem very real. There's lots of mundane things to sort out and I'm watching rubbish movies on tv in layers of clothes as it's so cold. It doesn't feel like I'm about to leave all of this for ages and go on a big adventure. I might turn the heating right up and put some sunglasses on to get me in the right mood...

on another note I had a lovely time this weekend in exeter so thank you lots to amy and rakshita for putting me up and stef for driving me around. they are such goodies. oh and yesterday with jo and alice. who make me feel a bit of a failure with all the amazing stuff they're up to ("oh I just have to keep my phone on as I'm waiting for a phone call from the producer of Skins") but are also lovely too. fanks guys xx